What if it's a boy?!?

** The following post was written during a  brief panic attack of a first time mom to be. 

All in all this week as been good. Seeing my husband get so excited about this baby is amazing. He is the only one i let touch the belly and he has already started talking to the baby. He has not wavered and is still convinced that Nugget is a boy. I am still unsure. 

I do not have that mother's intuition just yet. I guess because this whole hint is still crazy and surreal to me. I can say that I am nervous though. 

What if Nugget is a boy? What the hell am I supposed to do with him? I am as girls girl as they come. I mean, i remember my tomboy days, but those did not last long. And I was still a girly girl at heart. I just liked hanging with the boys. And playing football.  How am I supposed to fit in with a son and a man's man as a husband. These two will be ripping and running, jumping off houses, playing every sport possible and come in the house bloody and bruised. Where do I fit in?

Mister and I have talked about this a few times and I know that it's not competition between the two of us, but I just can't help the thought of feeling confused and left out. I don't know boys. I know bows and dresses. I know tea time and princess tiaras, not ninjas and race cars and certainly not worms, dirt, bugs and blood. I really want Nugget to be a boy, because I know that it would mean the world to Mister, but I can't hold back the desire for it to be a girl. At least I'll stand a chance. Lol.