Dress Uncertainty

From the moment a little girl starts dreaming about her wedding, she dreams of her dress. She dreams of being a princess on her day with the perfect gown to match. I was no different.... Well I guess that is not entirely true. Most little girls are a tad bit more decisive than I am. I have been to a total of 6 different appointments at 4 different bridal salons and have tried on 25+ dressed and just have not had that overwhelming feeling of surety

At some point in time there were 2 different dresses that I was/am fond of and I felt/feel like the each could be "The One" for different reasons. However, I am already feeling dress regret and I haven't even purchased anything yet. I NEED to order my dress by the end of January so I have a very limited time frame. I guess the problem is that I am just not loving anything. I feel bad for dragging my poor old MoH to ALL of my appointments with me, "find the dress" only to turn around a few days later and second guess it. Many ppl say that once you have found your dress you should stop looking and I have tried my hardest to adhere to that and I've done well. But it's not the pictures of other dresses that is making me feel the regret...its the pictures of myself in said dresses that have me confused. I also saw a different person in one of the dresses and I HATED it on her. Now I know dresses look different on different ppl, but how possible is it to have to strong reactions from the same dress days apart?!?!

I have just become so tired of going dress hunting and trying on dress after dress. I'm tired of coming home and telling FI "I've found my dress and it's only $xyz amount!" I'm tired of not having my Mommy there with me to give me her honest input and help em choose my dress because EVERYONE who knows me know I'm indecisive. All of this indecisiveness has just made this whole thing no fun. And it sucks. Idk what I'm going to do...but something has to be done quickly.

I am probably go out to different salon and try on a few different dresses by myself. I don't have the heart to go back in to those same salons that I've been to twice each (because I like the service and the consultants,) only to tell them that I am yet again unsure of my dress. I'm too much of a coward to put them through that so I might take the punk way out.

I wish someone told me it wasn't going to be as easy as I had expected.